IM SORRY

firstly i wanna say im sorry to baby....i noe tht you wanted me to sms you ...i wanted to baby...i realy do ...but than i had to do stuff once i reached there...i had no time to sms,....than you called and than i was free..im sorry baby,....i love you so so much baby...
secondly...im sorry linardy, aiman, amanda, kelly, joseph...and gang..im so sorry...i noe im in the deco group and i didn help out at all...i didn even stay to help out for the cleanin up...im so sorry guys..i truly am...i didn mean to ditch you guys like tht...sorry..
anyway...food feastival today...went to college at 7 sth...and help out a lil for the deco which i noe it wasn't enuf...than help out to sell nasi lemak....we all ended up goin to the streets asking ppl weather they wanted to buy nasi lemak...hahaha....it was damn funny...see ppl wavin no and just smiling back at us...but than we were able to sell most of the nasi lemaks...than me, aiman,nick,kim,kelly,gina,melissa and yvonne help by sellin the cupcakes...though it was expensive as it was 1 dollar for 1 and it was small...we were able to sell all of the cupcakes and i can say tht it was mostly girls that bought the cupcakes...cuz of the design we were only able to sell all...than me and joseph help by screaming our asses off sayin chocolate fondue 3 dollar, 3 dollar...was damn funny..ppl stared at us as if we were insane...than our opposite were sorta jealous and they screamed out their products....eventually both the group were the loudest among the others...was damn fun today..in the end i lost my voice...nw can hardly talk...than went to 1u with baby and ser...hanged arnd there and watched evan almighty...was funny..totally hilarious...than stayed there for quite some time cuz jo only able to take us after she's done with her stuff..left at arnd 7 sth...and reached home only nw...spent total amount of 6 hrs with her...was the best time ever...and also she gt to see my hse...YAY!!....hahaha....damn lameo..i noe...
tmr merdeka day...parents are goin to thailand and im gonna be home-alone for 3 days...with nuthing to do cuz baby might not be free...haizz...lousy merdeka day...

FOOD FEAST!

haven been bloggin for the past 2 days...alot has been goin..today...hmm...reached kdu at like 9 sth...and wanted to call baby...but than lecturer asked me to do sth...and after tht as i wanted to call her she called me..and she was like a lil pissed cuz i didn call nor sms....im sorry baby.... i didn mean to....the lecturer asked me to do sth...anyway...had no classes today....had mr. hors class but only for attendence...than went to aimans place cuz he forgot to bring stuff...came baq and the start of decoration began....i felt kinda bad...im in the deco group but i didn do alot of work...where else those who aren like amanda, fei, joseph...etc...they help out the most...felt really bad...than saw baby...she so good...she wasnt suppose to come today but came and help out to do work....and she had to was forced to go home and do the menu ....bloody ppl....not her work and she asked her to do....stupid ccrazy lazy ppl....anyway i had to go to baby's place cuz she needed help...and from 5 i spent my time with her till 9....thts nice....hehhe....than later on went home...asked sis weather she can take me tmr...but she said no...so i had to go to linardy's hse to sleepover....sorry linardy...so..currently..im at his place nw...heheehe....


thts all for nw..
goodnight.
goonight baby..
i love you
i miss you already baby..

ALRITE!!

today was alrite i guess...went to college...and saw mel and lie finally talkin again as frens....glad to see them together again,....nw its a whole!...hehe...had industry which was quite borin..and than F.O.M...was okaay..but the whole class kena scoldin from ms. wong....than we went to makan at a chinese shop down the road..and saw yvonne and derrick together having lunch...hahaah....than could see yvonne was quite pissed cuz we interrupted them...than they all had french so me, lie and aiman went to sunway to do mr. jia's assignment...best assignment ever i have to say...hahaha...than baby finished class early so i went to see her...sorry guys ...for ditchin you all..sorry...anyway was with baby from 4 to 7...wish i could stay longer...but we can tmr..hehe...but than being with her really makes me complete and happy...i love you baby...
anyway went home..and had dinner..than went online...
ahh!! crap!! tmr must wear white T-shirt...and jeans...dun have white shirt...and don like wearing jeans....haizz...tmr another new day...

SAD DAY

First things first...i woke up thinking YAY!! im gonna see baby today...but than i remembered tht she won't be coming today...haizz...than went to college...thinkin maybe it'll be a good day..but than it was bloody monday morning...had to listen to the most boring-est day every...felt like sleepin...than was english..and i didn noe wht happen but mel and lie..was kinda arguin...and i didn noe wht happen but than i tired to comfort them and tried to patch things up...not only did i not succeed....but i think i made mel more angry...the whole time i was like shit...why did i had to open my big mouth...and its all mu fault...and class was finished early....haizz i dunoe wht to do???....i noe tht its my fault..and mel and lie...if you guys see this blog ...i just wanna say im sorry for disrupting your privacy...i noe i don have any right to say anything...sorry guys...

SUESS PARTY

woke up and went for drivin..was like shit...died the engine like mad..haizz..can't pass la...than went to meet up with aiman, linardy,melissa,derrick and rein..went to buy stuff for the decorations...went to quite a few places and bought alot of stuf..than went to ampang point to have lunch..and met up with prashant and he met my college frens..was funny...damn tht boy grew so tall...nearly as tall as me wei..crazy how he could grow in 3 months...tht ass..hehe...than went to sues party...wen we(me,baby and ser) reached there i thought to myself...ahh its gonna be boring la....but than it wasnt...it was damn fun actually...saw winston,mahfuz,khalid,mintut,ye tun,nerrisa,su yin,nerrisa and rhea...wow...lots of changes..khalid, grew taller by an inch??...and gt buffer...winston...bastard with the mohawk..and sides are like bald....crazy faggot..ye tun..no changes..but than he said he gt better in bball...we'll see ye tun if you improved or not..than min tut...first thing i saw..was him drvin in a fuckin wira...tht ass...i thought he gt his licence...i was like damn shocked...but than he said he drving..illegally...hahahaha....tht guy gonna get caught one day..than had dinner with the gang...seems like they also enjoy college life and told a whole bunch of stories..haha...it was fun...than we all drank wine...well i think i drank most of the wine and all of them only had a sip or two...hehe...the night was fun and it seems like it ended so fast...a blink of an eye and it was already 12.oo...damn time flies so so so fast...and the saddest part was tht baby had to leave early cuz mom and dad wanted her to go baq...it was so unfair..dad promised her tht she could stay up as long as she wanted..but at 9 mom called and said they on the way...it was so unfair...haizz...i hate tht....than jon crashed at my place...thts it..the next day...woke up cuz baby woke me up cuz i had driving again...and she went to church...and jon left ...and drvin sucked...i couldn get the clutch and accelerator in a proper position and ended up with dead engine...i died the engine so many times tht one time i couldn start the engine for like 2 mins...haizz...than the instructer told me i needed more pratice..haizz...i need them anyway...i have a feelin i can't pass the drivin test..

LEANN RIMES-I NEED YOU

I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing
’cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now
’cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

TodAY was a good day i guess....went to college...and only had one class...the rest of my day was free cuz the lecturer had sth to do...but the bad part is tht we gonna have replacement class on a sat after merdeka....crap la...i dun wanna go for classes on a saturday...tht sucks....anyway after tht went to lie's place...discussed about the food feast decorations....went online and found derek...tht guy nicely naked wen webcam...hahaha...than went baq to kdu to discusse with the lecturer to see if it was good...and wen we reach there...bloddy shocked!!!....never seen so many ppl in my life in one place...wow....than found out tht they were all graduatin...and i nearly gt into a fight..cuz tht bloddy ass was blockin my way so i just went thru him...and he tried to catch me..but slipped...than i looked baq and he was giving a cock stare...wanted to whack tht faggot...anyway after tht went to babys place...and mom and dad went to church..so me, baby and jon were left in the house...and havin being with her really makes me very secure, comfortable, glad and most of all happiness...than watched dead silence...a good movie...but quiet very dumb...a puppet killing ppl if they dare to scream...than went baq at 8.30....and nicely waited for taxi like forty minutes...bloddy taxies don wanna take me....haizz...thts all for today..till than auf wiedersehen...a.k.a...good bye

FUCK THIS!

i seriously dunoe wht the hell am i doin rite nw...i dunoe weather to call baq just just let her relax her anger down..it all started wen baby had to clean her bedsheets and everything cuz of her dog pied all over her bed...and because of tht she's gettin all moddy...and me tryin to noe wht isit about...she just ticked off and told me..and started throwing her anger at me...the way she said it is like im the faggot who pied on her bedsheets and its all my fault nw...and becuz of the fuckin line we always get hanged up...one way lead and nw...we both aren't talkin to each other..(this might get serious)...but the thing nw is tht she is bloddy pissed and doesn't wanna talk to anyone...and im just a lil annoyed cuz she said it likes its my fault..anyway...just gonna leave it like this..im guessin no one will call each other tonite..

WEDNESDAY

haizz...went to college damn early today...was there like at 7..saw linardy..than talked for awhile..than went for class...learned new things on front office...but forgot everything in the end??..hehehe...than went for hors class...and was totally blur and sleepy...hehe..than was seperated into groups to do assignment...than wen class was over...they all left to cafe 87 to eat..while i went to fairview to get my results....was damn nervous from the trip to fairview...thought i was gonna fail all my subs and had a thought of gettin kicked out of kdu?...wen reached there..seems nuthing has changed...nava being the same ol bitch...skul still sucks....than wen i gt my results..i found out tht i had 1 U..haizz...need to buckal up in my studies nw...in total i had 1C 3 Ds 1 E and 2 U's...haizz...than went home..and went online..than felt very sleepy and slept..wen i woke up i realized tht i slept for 4 hrs...wow...i don usually take naps..but DANG!...i took a long nap today...college...quite tiring at times....haizz

..NO TITLE.

college...can be fun at times...can be shitty at times....today for me...college was realy shitty..had class from 8-12...and plus it was damn boring wei....i mean seriously..hearin a guy whoes voice is like beginning of his puberty tht just began to crack...its really boring...and after tht had front office management...and instead of havin class the lecturer had tons of complains about us cuz of coming to class late...playin a fool in class..and not in proper attire...and cuz of tht...each and everyone had to stand as they are being by attendance and the class "groomer" had to spot out every single detail tht was not hotel manager material...and wen it was my turn..i had like 3 complains...first was tht my belt...which was no where in sight cuz i didn have one....and hair which i don want to cut it...but force to nw..and lastly its tht wen im out of her class my shirts are out...and pants are fallin...hehehe....i don care...just gona cut my hair thts all..than i met up with baby and in the end i went to her place to chill..and wen mom and dad was gone..we were together so close..and tht was the best part of my day cuz i realize tht the feelings of insecurity has gone ...i really enjoyed my day with her...and im really glad and thankful tht im actually with the girl of my dreams...i can never ask for more...thank you o mighty lord..

DREAMS!! I HATE IT

haizz...they say dreams come true...i personally hope the one i had will never come true at all...
anyway i had a dream last night..it was that baby called me and she told me that it was time tht we have a breaK..and that i shuldn bother callin her anymore until i have grown up and learn not to be pissed at small lil things cuz she was tired of it already..i was shocked, sad, confused and reaaly like "wht the fuck?"....after that i knew tht i made a very stupid mistake...and i tired to call her and tell her that im sorry and it'll never happen again...i called her 10 times and she never picked up and never even call baq..and online i tried to say it there but she was never online..and till one time she actually picked up....she was like WHT?!..than i apologized to her and said im sorry...she wouldn forgive me...than i went out for a lonely lunch..i saw her with her exx...and i was totally shocked and very blank in my mind..i didn noe tht this kinda things would have ever happen to me wen im with her..haizz...after tht i just comited suicide ...i remembered how i actually died...i went to the top apartment..which was 30 floors...and i went to the edge with a knife..i slit my throat and i fell down ....than my mom woke me up for college...and i found myself cryin..and after that i was totally depressed the whole day..until i told baby about it and she said that it will never happen,...i believe her with all my heart...i really do..but something in me thinks that in the VERY VERY NEAR future..it will happen,...i dunoe why this insecurity has happen to me again...i dunoe why...i thought it came and left and begone with it...but nw it has come baq to hunt me...and this insecurity might not leave me nw...i dunoe why am i feelin like this...i really love you denise..i love you baby...they might say its obssesion..i don care...i admit..i am obssesed with you ...i am...you might this tht im wierd...im crazy...im stupid..im dumb..im an asshole...i don care...i want you to noe tht i really love you ...i love you like MAD!!....but you can't blame me baby...i've been inlove with you for 4 years..and im finally able to be with you..and nw you tell me to let go.i realy can't do it...im sorry...I WILL NEVER DO IT....im crazy baby i noe i am...i noe i am..im sorry..nw the whole decision its really up to you weather you still wanna be with me...

5th MONTH anni

baby you gotta noe..your the air tht i breath, your the light of my day, your the one that brigtens my life wen im down.. your the soul tht allows me to live, your the one i need the most in my life...without you i would die.
wht im tryin to say is that i just want to see you today just for 5 mins cuz i aint gonna see you at all today and tmr and sundaY and monday...all i was askin was for 5 mins..but than you didn noe...and i don blame you...when you went without tellin me i was pissed...i noe you noe..its just that i REALLY WANTED to see you..
anyway all im tryin to say is i love you with all my heart and soul baby..and from the day i met you till today..i cherished every moments with you and never have i even thought of regretin at all..i love you baby..and im very sorry again..but than havin spent time with you from 5 till 9 was a moment that i'll never forget...it was the first time tht we went out on a anni...and again im sorry tht i haven taken you out for a date baby...tht i regret..i shuld have...im sorry baby..i love you..i love you..
and since you noe wht type of guys you have in your class...PLZZ PLZZZ take care of yourself baby...i don wan anything to happen to you..if sth is wrong..call me..and i will be there right away..

SHIT HAPPENS PART 2!!

haven been bloggin for the past week and a whole lot of shit has happen....since it is hungry ghost festival...it seems tht my luck has gone down... way way down to the drain...haizz...first was in front office class we went to the "cinema" lab and i didn noe there was a steel on the bottom..and my darn legs are too long...and it hit my knee for several times..and nw its blue-black..haizz...than was tht i was either blur or tired i trip on the same sopt outside of college for like 3-4 times....and i nearly fell....crap...and whts wrost...today i was walkin into the kitchen,..and somehow my legs went to fast and far...it hit the edge of the steel that holds the water ...and nw..its either broken or fractured...its nicely swallon like mad...haizz....shit really happens to me...and also last week i went to skul and went to 1u and didn wanna tell baby cuz i was scared tht she'll be pissed...and now she found out tht i went and she's more pissed at me than ever...CRAP!!!!!! WHY DIDN I TELL YOU BABY..AND NW YOUR MAD...IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY BABY...I PROMISE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE I'LL TELL YOU EVERYTHING THT IS HAPPENIN IN ME..AND NO MATTER WHT IT IS..GOIN TO TOILET OR GOIN TO SHOWER,...I'LL TELL YOU,...PLZ FORGIVE ME BABY...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL...I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU...PLZ FORGIVE ME...IM VERY VERY SORRY BABY

SHIT HAPPENS!

a sunday tht turn bad.
well woke up in the wrong side of the bed today...woke up at 8 and sleep again till 9.45 and mom kept buggin me to wake up cuz i have drivin pratice...i was damn pissed...but nvm..tham called baby and she put down the fone twice..and i was more mad..but than she explained and it was all good...hehe..i love you baby.
and my body is achin like mad..i feel a sickness comin to me..haizz..
went for pratice...was quiet nervous...everything went well...until the freggin perdana overtook me and scared the crap outta me...tht fag..and to make it worse i died the car like 4-5 times...haizz...dunoe how m i gonna pass my liecence...and somemore its on a kancil...so it was really uncomfortable...my legs were achin like mad...nvm...maybe will get used to it in the next 2 classes...

DEDICATION

baby before i start i would like you to noe tht you mean not only the world to me but you mean the universe to me.

baby the first time i laid my eyes i didn believe in love at first sight.
wen we were friends i thank god tht this had happen.
wen you were with your ex and exx, it killed me tht i couldn give you the happiness tht you need. and wen shit happened i thought of killing them for you. and nw tht i have had the guts to asked you out, we are together and i noe tht im the luckiest guy in the world, i noe tht i have my bad points but i want you to noe tht i would sacrifies my life just to see you smile, just to brighten your day.this love has been with me for 4 yrs, and nw tht i can actually be with you really think tht god is lookin after me.
we might have our bad times but without it i don think tht we would last.
sometimes its hard to believe tht i can have a wonderful girlfriend like you. its realy hard to believe and yet it has happen to me and im really really happy.
and i love you baby, i love you with all my heart and soul and my life, you have been great to me and i believe tht the sun will never set on our love.
all i really want to say is tht i love you so much baby and i miss you baby..i miss you so much..and i love you...its really never tired to say i love you at all...i love you,i love you,i love you,i love you and i love you

hehehe...college was okaay today....had fun ...mr.thomas was making jokes from the start till the end..it was fun...but than without baby by my side is just not right...its very awkward without her with me,...i miss you so much baby...it might be just one more day but its killing me already...i can't wait any longer...its a must to see you RIGHT NOW!!! haizz...

HEADACHE!!!

wow...college is really tough...gt alot of assignments to do...its so bloddy crazy..still gt Mr. whores assignment to do and its due next week wed and i still haven even finish a page...haizz...dunoe if i can pass it up on time or not...crap..to top it off i've gt test tmr..and i heard from linardy today tht quite a number of ppl failed...wow...this is makin me more nervous..somemore im new..i dunoe if i can do it or not...haizz...this suxs bad..college is tough, driving test on 22 and i still haven learned anything and i haven seen baby for 3 whole weeks....thts the worse...haizz this is killing me..i dunoe if i can cope with it..not bout college and all but not seeing baby...THTS KILLING ME!!!!!but than babys comin next week monday...gonna see her in orientation ...hehehe...can't wait!!

PISSING DAY

FUCK!!...today was bloddy pissin off...i woke up with a BAD mood...haizz..
than went to college thinkin it was gonna be alrite but turns out tht there was a assinment tht i was suppose to do...but than i just came like 4 days ago...how the hell m i suppose to do it...so the lecturer gave all the new students a warning(which we not suppose to have) after tht went to eat with frens...was okaay after that...than i was bloddy pissed again cuz no taxies would go to my place...so i had to wait for an half hour just for taxi...than came the jam which was again pissin me off....so the cost was like 20+ bucks....shit!!
and im almost broke....than wen i came home the first thing dad asked me to do was go out and buy stuff for him...and he was out just nw and he couldn buy it,...tht fag...than i called the driver learnin thing to see if i can do my drivin thing today...not only he said cannot but he was like huh? huh? huh? cannot hear you call me baq later *click*....tht bastard....haven said 10 words and he shut me down.....haizz

today is just not my day

sleepy day

haizz...i didn have enuf sleep last night...was talkin to baby till 2 and it really meant the world to me cuz i haven talk to her like tht for a LONG LONG LONG LONG time...maybe its just 2-3 weeks but to me thts 2-3 century ...anyway i felt happy cuz i finally got to talk to her...and we slept at 2..and i only had like 3 hours of sleep..cuz mom woke me up for college at 5..wow was i sleepy...i don think i've ever slept while bathin...haha...anyway sis couldn take me to college cuz she only slept at 4...so not enuf sleep for her...and i asked mom wether she could send me...and she said she dunoe how to go baq...but the real answer was tht she was lazy to take me there...so i was kinda pissed..and i had to take a cab to go college...and it was like 19 freakin bucks...haizz..and after reachin to college durin all the classes i was nicely sleepin and didn bother payin attention to wht the lecturers were sayin...but than i gt notes from linardy so i didn miss much...hehe..so...after college i didn had pick-up home also...and i had to spend another 19 bucks...wow...spent like 40++ for a day of college...shit...i need to start drivin...haizz...nw im online and have no assignments and baby is out for braces check-up...and she told me she can take them off next month...tht reminds me tht she's gonna start college next week....YAY!!
but still i wanna see her nw!!!!!

because you love me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

TIRING DAY!

WOW!!!....second day of college and i feel so tired already...haizz...i mean it wasn't tht tiring...its more of boring though....i mean 2 hours of a guy name Mr.hor talkin about crap....man tht was B-O-R-I-N-G!!! plus later another 2 hours of personal development....crap la...i hate mondays....i feel so blue nw...tired at college, tired at assignments and whts worse im tired of not seeing my baby...i miss her so much...wonder if she thinks of me??hmmm....
hehehehehe....

and i finish my assignment today...haizz was tht tiring...hands are bloody tired..

CRAPAH!!!

DYING INSIDE TO HOLD YOU
Timmy Thomas


It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
when I turned to leave
I couldn't believe my eyes

standing there I didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face

Chorus
(And) I was dying indside to hold you
I couldn't believe what I felt for you
dying inside I was dying inside
but I couldn't bring myself to touch you

you said hello then u asked my name
I didn't know if I should go all the way
inside I felt my life have really changed
I knew that it would never be the same

standing there I didn't know what to say
first time looked away when I whispered your name

Chorus 2x

one hello changed my life
I didn't believe in love at first sight
but you've shown me what is life
and I now I know my love (I know it's coming right)

Chorus (fade)

DEF LEOPARD
TWO STEPS BEHIND


Walk away if you want to.
Its ok, if you need to.
Well, you can run, but you can never hide
From the shadow thats creepin up beside you.

And, theres a magic runnin through your soul,
But you cant have it all.
(whatever you do)
Well, Ill be two steps behind you
(wherever you go)
And Ill be there to remind you
That it only takes a minute of your precious time
To turn around and Ill be two steps behind.

Yeah, yeah.
Take the time to think about it.
Just walk the line, you know you just cant fight it
And take a look around, youll see what you cant find,
Like the fire thats burnin up inside me.

Yeah, yeah.
Oh.
Yeah, baby.
Two steps behind
Oh, sugar,
Two steps behind.

AHHH!!!!

FUCK!!! look at tht hair...shit la...why did i have to go cut it short?!!?!
i hate my hair nw...looks so bloody short....i look like a nerd nw...hahaha
anyway...haizz...i guess i have to cut it sooner or later...wht to do if your in a hoyel management class...haizz...have to look decent, look smart, look fresh....bloody class...
today woke up at god noes wht time..and went out to cut my hair..and came baq without reliseing tht it was already 3.27....damn time flys so fuckin fast...next thing i'll noe...i'll be wakin up to go to college tmr...haizz....i hate this....i wanna see baby...i miss you so so much...i wanna see you badly nw!!!...i wanna hold her in my arms...i wanna be with her right nw!!

HAIZZZZ!!!


Haizz this bloddy sucks...im bloody bored at home...theres nuthing to do at home..and can't talk to her also...haizz...she's gone out to nana's husband place cuz she couldn go baq..nw she doesn't wanna go baq...and nw...she's havin dinner with the family nw...hehehe...it feels like she's part of their family already...and the mom and dad is so nice to her...haizz...gonna start learnin to drive this upcoming sat(maybe)... and...i got nuthing else to write...haizz...

my baby, my love,my life

CRAP!!

motherfucker!@#@!#


i seriously hate stayin at home nw...fuck home!
bloddy hell..im nicely doin my homework and my mom comes in and say do this and do tht..after that i tried to do my homework again...dad came and say don do your homework la...help me with the work...WTF!!! it seems to him workin is more fuckin important than studies...bloddy faggot..
anyway nw cuz of baby's bill im not allowed to call her and only can sms in the noon and only able to call at night...this sucks...this reallly sucks..

im bloddy bored at home!!!...i stayed home all day watchin friends...and tried to did my homework but failed...nw only did half away..gt 1000 more words to go...shit!!...plus its dued on monday...shit la..baby went to sis hse...and dunoe whts she's up too nw?...haizzz

BOREDOM!!!!

My god!..woke up today with forced..outta sudden i woke up and my stomach was aching like mad...after tht i couldn get up at all i was like lyin on bed from 8-9...i tried to get myself better but its was to bloddy painful..it was like someone just punched but 10x more than tht..damn potong ice-cream...shuldn have eaten it last night..nw feel like crap...i think i gots the dirhea...haizz...than after feelin a lil better went down to work..till than will update later

START OF COLLEGE

today was the first day of my college life...
it was quite fun...meeting new friends was quite fun..cuz they had various opinions bout each clasmate...and was funny just hearin them bitchin bout they own friends..
anway..started class at 8..at first i was all "fuck..this is fuckin new..no one to talk to"
but later on ppl started askin my name and askin me to join them for lunch and everything...it was nice..than i began to feel like...home...i felt more like home in college than than in my own house...
in class i had my first homework...had to write about guests cycle in 1500 words...my goodness tht bloddy lecturer gives no mercy man..seriously strict..and after that i was like free the whole time untill 2...so i just hanged out with ser* and her friends cuz all my friends were in class...they were nicely bitchin about anyone who just came into the cafeteria or sayin how hot this guy is or tht guy is..girls girls girls...can never ever get them..than i called baby to see wht she's up to and i found out tht the dad was freakin pissed cuz her bill was like 300++...i was like oh fuck..why did i do this to her...why? why ?why?...haizzz...i feel so fuckin bad for her nw...
she didn do anything wrong and she's gettin all the blame...i wish i could go up to the father and say don blame your daughter...its all my fault...but god noes tht i'll never have tht kinda guts to do tht..anway after tht i went for class which i was late for a few minutes...and i kinda missed ALOT of info...but than i thank god tht i was able to catch up with the group...and turnes out i finished the pratical work faster than most ppl..hehe...im good...hahahaha...prasan case la me...anyway after tht the class was over and i thought i would go home by lrt since my sis couldn pick me up..but than i thank god again cuz as i was walkin i saw a classmate tht i didn talk to..and he said bye...and i said bye too but i also thought if i shuld ask where did he live...wht the heck..whts the harm in tht...so i asked and turns out he lives like 10 feet away from me only...and he asked me where i live and he insisted on givin me a ride home...i really thank god tht my day was so lucky but than i still feel bad for baby..baby if you readin this i am so so so so so so so so sorry ...i noe you told me to forget about it...but i just can't..i really can't...hearin tht you gt scolded from dad because of my fault really makes me wanna kill myself right nw...i sometimes realy think tht i don deserve to be with her..she's so pretty,smart,out-goin-fun to be with and plus her personality rocks ..and wht am i?
im inconsidered,impatient,i get mad at her for lil things and she's able to forgive me, im an ugly piece of shit and she's the goddess sent from heaven...im sometimes really think tht she's beauty and im the ugliest beast ever...anyway...she told me she went for joggin which she didn go and she waited for me to sms her and while waiting she was eatin candy...and nw she feels very sick and she has the stomache...nw i feel more worse than bad...i really feel like suiciding cuz i really don't deserve a "heaven-sent" girl like her..i dunoe why but im so inlove with her..i don think i've ever felt this way towards a girl before...she's my lucky charm,she's my angel,she's the world to me...i would be lost,gone,alone if i ever loose her..

im gonna end this with
"the beauty and the beast reality fairytale"