dee :D

muahahahaha...


deedee wasn't here :D

puahahahaha..

SEXY BABY!!
wow baby gt her new haircut today....after goin church she went to sungai wang and cut her hair there...WOOOOOW!!!!....so sexy la....cannot tahan anymore...hehe....
anyway haven been updatin my blog...been very bery very busy...and also very lazy hehehe...sorry...anyway this past few weeks?...haven been a real confusin....ermm...firstly passed my driving test...but than mom doesn wan me to drive cuz if i do sis would have to move out ans mom doesn wan tht to happen...haizz...she is like the fuckin pampered in the family....and im nothing,....haizz...today...sunday....woke up at 1 and still felt like sleepin....dunoe whts wring with me...after tht watched tv and than showered....after doin those things..its was already like 3-4...whole day gone just because of sleepin...ahahah....would like to do tht everyday...umm...i guess thts all for nw...
P.S...baby....YOU LOOK SO SEXYYY!!!...
tmr our 6 months anni...and i still can't celebrate with you.....*sniff sniff*...sorry baby.....maybe i'll come see you tmr?....anyway baby i love you and i miss you so so so so much...and baby...happy 6th month anniversary

pissing off

haizz...i hate saturdays...i really hate them...you ruin my day you bitch...anyway...went for drivin lessons today..and was okkayy...gt the hill part finaallly...after tht went home..thought i could study for a lil...but guess wht...i couldn ...why?...cuz of my fuckin parents..they drving me nuts i tell you...they bloddy well noe i have a test comin soon...and they wan me to do work...haizz....wen i gt pissed at them they were like..i ask you to do one thing and you get all pissed..and swearing at my face...wht a nice way of teachin their own son...and cuz of tht i couldn even say one word to baby cuz of working..bloddy shit...and she kinda gt pissed at me cuz of tht...i don blame her....and im really sorry baby...
anyway...dad wanted me to see my drivin and took me out...wen you fuckin give advice sat it...don shout it...you do noe tht wen you get nervous you go blank..and thts excatly wht he did...than i go all blank and he starts sayin..you drive ah?...sure die la,..thousands of accidents cuz of ppl like you...im like WTF?!...thts a way to teach me?...thts a way to improve me?....fuck you dick head..
baby...if you read this ...im sorry for all the foul words...im just bloddy pissed at mom and dad...they are drving me nuts!!....
i wanna move outta the hse nw..i wanna run away from them..i don even wanna see them anymore...gt outta my life you shits!

start of a new day....boring.

its 9 in the morning..woke up to go college..reached there arnd 8...and was one of the earliest to come...class starts at 10...but im here so early...dunoe wht m i gonna do...haizz...im in the comp lab surfing the net...and smsin baby...than she had to go makan breakfast..and nw im all alone again...hahaha....anyway..thts all for this morning...theres nuthing to write about...bloddy boring day right nw...baby...if you readin this..i wanna say i love you baby...i love you so so much...and baby you take care okaay?....you gt flu and i think its my fault...i think i passed it to you...sorry baby....take care...drink more water and eat medicine okaay baby?...i love you

tuesday

woke up late today for college...told mom to wake me up at 8..but was suppose to leave at 6...i forgot...anyway reached college at 8...just on time...after tht had presentation..which was really sucky...than ms wong was absent..so was free..while tht time the group went to prepare for IDF.
after tht met up with baby...and saw her doin assignment with jerrick and charity...first time meeting jerrick....a nice guy i think...anyway...after tht....after tht went to do the booth...thought we wernt gonna make it...but turns out we got more than 60 signatures....left to baby's hse at 3...and spent time with her at her place...saw her brother...which btw...still pissed at me...haizz...i dunoe wht to do ...and at 4 sth...no electricity at her place...so left her place at 6...which i wasnt able to tell her cuz she sleepin...im so sorry baby...
thts all for tonite..

MONDAY BLUES

haizz...woke up this morning findin myself happy cuz i was gonna see baby...but than i reached college at 7 sth...and smsed her..and she said she only comin at 10....so i had classes(B-O-R-I-N-G)....and baby smsed tht she finised...and it was only 11....but than she couldn go home yet cuz dad switched off his fone..so she had to call mom to pick her up...therefore she waited for mom till 12....and luckily classes finished at 11.3o...so i quickly rushed to see her....but only able to see her for 20 mins...haizz...this sucks....college sucks....the timetable sucks more!! anyway after seein her i went to makan...than had class...(thought we had)....but than mr.gabriel was absent...so free period...so we used tht time to do our assignment which is due tmr...and we haven touched it one bit...than stayed in college till 6 to do the assignment...than went to linardy's hse to fry the keropok kulit...whts worse tht it took 2 guys to finish one quater in and hr....and it took like 30 mins for linardy's cousin to cook it...it was so damn embarressing...imagine next semester we will have to cook for ppl....gonna be some angry ppl waiting for their food...anyway after tht went home...thx to sis cuz she picked me...if not i dunoe how am i ever gonna get home with the heavy rain fallin upon me..

SUNDAY

hmm...today...LETS see...woke up at 11 today...was late for lunch with linardy and aiman...and i also forgot to call baby at 8 which i promised her to do...im so sorry baby...i slept late...ver very sorry baby.....anyway i quickly showered and left hse arnd 12...reached 1u at arnd 1...than met up with linardy and aiman....went to kenny rogers for lunch...wow...quiet expensive wei...8 bucks for a quater chicken..shit malaysia...anyway after luch i smsed baby to see where she was and gt a lil pissed cuz misunderstanding...sorry again baby...anyway met baby at the curve or ikea and just walked arnd with her and her sis....walk walk walked...thts all we did....bought baby 2 pants boxers??....i dunoe...but its kinda short...but only for home wear....anyway after tht went to baskin robins for ice-cream...than saw jon c....and than met up with sis and vinesh..at 7 we all left cuz baby had to leave also...reached home arnd 8...and nw...online while baby is havin dinner....oh...btw mom and dad reached home from thailand at 2.3o....wish they would go overseas more often..haizz

TIRED DAY

woke up with a headache today...due to drunkness..anyway went for drivin today..and *ahem*..it kinda suck...cuz i was damn tired,blur,slow and weak...so i kept makin the engine dead...haizz...cuz of tht i have another class....later on went to kdu to do assignments...did it untill arnd 5-6 sth...
later on went to sis bf place to get him...and went home...came home arnd 9 sth cuz of jam...than we went out to makan steamboat...i don like it,....it doesn make you full...frankly im STILL hungry..but than sis tired...so we went home...and they slept...while im online talkin to baby and havin a hungry stomach...haizz...i just found out the baby's brother hate me cuz i threaten him..and he doesn like to be threaten...its just tht i want him to learn ...i noe i have no right to do it cuz im not his mom and dad...but still i want him to learn...in life you gotta take this kinda SHIT!...its not all about your decisions and always your right...and you talk baq you face the consequences...you balck-mail you get the same thing...its not all you do and no one can do it to you...baby,....if you read this and find tht im a bad influence and a bad bf..i don really care...i just want him to learn..i don wan him to go to the wrong direction..if he does in the future..everone is gonna regret it for not teaching him...haizz...all i want to say is i don wan him go to a wrong turn....
i don feel like bloggin today...to be honest im kinda pissed...
so thts all for today

IM SORRY

firstly i wanna say im sorry to baby....i noe tht you wanted me to sms you ...i wanted to baby...i realy do ...but than i had to do stuff once i reached there...i had no time to sms,....than you called and than i was free..im sorry baby,....i love you so so much baby...
secondly...im sorry linardy, aiman, amanda, kelly, joseph...and gang..im so sorry...i noe im in the deco group and i didn help out at all...i didn even stay to help out for the cleanin up...im so sorry guys..i truly am...i didn mean to ditch you guys like tht...sorry..
anyway...food feastival today...went to college at 7 sth...and help out a lil for the deco which i noe it wasn't enuf...than help out to sell nasi lemak....we all ended up goin to the streets asking ppl weather they wanted to buy nasi lemak...hahaha....it was damn funny...see ppl wavin no and just smiling back at us...but than we were able to sell most of the nasi lemaks...than me, aiman,nick,kim,kelly,gina,melissa and yvonne help by sellin the cupcakes...though it was expensive as it was 1 dollar for 1 and it was small...we were able to sell all of the cupcakes and i can say tht it was mostly girls that bought the cupcakes...cuz of the design we were only able to sell all...than me and joseph help by screaming our asses off sayin chocolate fondue 3 dollar, 3 dollar...was damn funny..ppl stared at us as if we were insane...than our opposite were sorta jealous and they screamed out their products....eventually both the group were the loudest among the others...was damn fun today..in the end i lost my voice...nw can hardly talk...than went to 1u with baby and ser...hanged arnd there and watched evan almighty...was funny..totally hilarious...than stayed there for quite some time cuz jo only able to take us after she's done with her stuff..left at arnd 7 sth...and reached home only nw...spent total amount of 6 hrs with her...was the best time ever...and also she gt to see my hse...YAY!!....hahaha....damn lameo..i noe...
tmr merdeka day...parents are goin to thailand and im gonna be home-alone for 3 days...with nuthing to do cuz baby might not be free...haizz...lousy merdeka day...

FOOD FEAST!

haven been bloggin for the past 2 days...alot has been goin..today...hmm...reached kdu at like 9 sth...and wanted to call baby...but than lecturer asked me to do sth...and after tht as i wanted to call her she called me..and she was like a lil pissed cuz i didn call nor sms....im sorry baby.... i didn mean to....the lecturer asked me to do sth...anyway...had no classes today....had mr. hors class but only for attendence...than went to aimans place cuz he forgot to bring stuff...came baq and the start of decoration began....i felt kinda bad...im in the deco group but i didn do alot of work...where else those who aren like amanda, fei, joseph...etc...they help out the most...felt really bad...than saw baby...she so good...she wasnt suppose to come today but came and help out to do work....and she had to was forced to go home and do the menu ....bloody ppl....not her work and she asked her to do....stupid ccrazy lazy ppl....anyway i had to go to baby's place cuz she needed help...and from 5 i spent my time with her till 9....thts nice....hehhe....than later on went home...asked sis weather she can take me tmr...but she said no...so i had to go to linardy's hse to sleepover....sorry linardy...so..currently..im at his place nw...heheehe....


thts all for nw..
goodnight.
goonight baby..
i love you
i miss you already baby..

ALRITE!!

today was alrite i guess...went to college...and saw mel and lie finally talkin again as frens....glad to see them together again,....nw its a whole!...hehe...had industry which was quite borin..and than F.O.M...was okaay..but the whole class kena scoldin from ms. wong....than we went to makan at a chinese shop down the road..and saw yvonne and derrick together having lunch...hahaah....than could see yvonne was quite pissed cuz we interrupted them...than they all had french so me, lie and aiman went to sunway to do mr. jia's assignment...best assignment ever i have to say...hahaha...than baby finished class early so i went to see her...sorry guys ...for ditchin you all..sorry...anyway was with baby from 4 to 7...wish i could stay longer...but we can tmr..hehe...but than being with her really makes me complete and happy...i love you baby...
anyway went home..and had dinner..than went online...
ahh!! crap!! tmr must wear white T-shirt...and jeans...dun have white shirt...and don like wearing jeans....haizz...tmr another new day...

SAD DAY

First things first...i woke up thinking YAY!! im gonna see baby today...but than i remembered tht she won't be coming today...haizz...than went to college...thinkin maybe it'll be a good day..but than it was bloody monday morning...had to listen to the most boring-est day every...felt like sleepin...than was english..and i didn noe wht happen but mel and lie..was kinda arguin...and i didn noe wht happen but than i tired to comfort them and tried to patch things up...not only did i not succeed....but i think i made mel more angry...the whole time i was like shit...why did i had to open my big mouth...and its all mu fault...and class was finished early....haizz i dunoe wht to do???....i noe tht its my fault..and mel and lie...if you guys see this blog ...i just wanna say im sorry for disrupting your privacy...i noe i don have any right to say anything...sorry guys...

SUESS PARTY

woke up and went for drivin..was like shit...died the engine like mad..haizz..can't pass la...than went to meet up with aiman, linardy,melissa,derrick and rein..went to buy stuff for the decorations...went to quite a few places and bought alot of stuf..than went to ampang point to have lunch..and met up with prashant and he met my college frens..was funny...damn tht boy grew so tall...nearly as tall as me wei..crazy how he could grow in 3 months...tht ass..hehe...than went to sues party...wen we(me,baby and ser) reached there i thought to myself...ahh its gonna be boring la....but than it wasnt...it was damn fun actually...saw winston,mahfuz,khalid,mintut,ye tun,nerrisa,su yin,nerrisa and rhea...wow...lots of changes..khalid, grew taller by an inch??...and gt buffer...winston...bastard with the mohawk..and sides are like bald....crazy faggot..ye tun..no changes..but than he said he gt better in bball...we'll see ye tun if you improved or not..than min tut...first thing i saw..was him drvin in a fuckin wira...tht ass...i thought he gt his licence...i was like damn shocked...but than he said he drving..illegally...hahahaha....tht guy gonna get caught one day..than had dinner with the gang...seems like they also enjoy college life and told a whole bunch of stories..haha...it was fun...than we all drank wine...well i think i drank most of the wine and all of them only had a sip or two...hehe...the night was fun and it seems like it ended so fast...a blink of an eye and it was already 12.oo...damn time flies so so so fast...and the saddest part was tht baby had to leave early cuz mom and dad wanted her to go baq...it was so unfair..dad promised her tht she could stay up as long as she wanted..but at 9 mom called and said they on the way...it was so unfair...haizz...i hate tht....than jon crashed at my place...thts it..the next day...woke up cuz baby woke me up cuz i had driving again...and she went to church...and jon left ...and drvin sucked...i couldn get the clutch and accelerator in a proper position and ended up with dead engine...i died the engine so many times tht one time i couldn start the engine for like 2 mins...haizz...than the instructer told me i needed more pratice..haizz...i need them anyway...i have a feelin i can't pass the drivin test..

LEANN RIMES-I NEED YOU

I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing
’cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now
’cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

TodAY was a good day i guess....went to college...and only had one class...the rest of my day was free cuz the lecturer had sth to do...but the bad part is tht we gonna have replacement class on a sat after merdeka....crap la...i dun wanna go for classes on a saturday...tht sucks....anyway after tht went to lie's place...discussed about the food feast decorations....went online and found derek...tht guy nicely naked wen webcam...hahaha...than went baq to kdu to discusse with the lecturer to see if it was good...and wen we reach there...bloddy shocked!!!....never seen so many ppl in my life in one place...wow....than found out tht they were all graduatin...and i nearly gt into a fight..cuz tht bloddy ass was blockin my way so i just went thru him...and he tried to catch me..but slipped...than i looked baq and he was giving a cock stare...wanted to whack tht faggot...anyway after tht went to babys place...and mom and dad went to church..so me, baby and jon were left in the house...and havin being with her really makes me very secure, comfortable, glad and most of all happiness...than watched dead silence...a good movie...but quiet very dumb...a puppet killing ppl if they dare to scream...than went baq at 8.30....and nicely waited for taxi like forty minutes...bloddy taxies don wanna take me....haizz...thts all for today..till than auf wiedersehen...a.k.a...good bye

FUCK THIS!

i seriously dunoe wht the hell am i doin rite nw...i dunoe weather to call baq just just let her relax her anger down..it all started wen baby had to clean her bedsheets and everything cuz of her dog pied all over her bed...and because of tht she's gettin all moddy...and me tryin to noe wht isit about...she just ticked off and told me..and started throwing her anger at me...the way she said it is like im the faggot who pied on her bedsheets and its all my fault nw...and becuz of the fuckin line we always get hanged up...one way lead and nw...we both aren't talkin to each other..(this might get serious)...but the thing nw is tht she is bloddy pissed and doesn't wanna talk to anyone...and im just a lil annoyed cuz she said it likes its my fault..anyway...just gonna leave it like this..im guessin no one will call each other tonite..

WEDNESDAY

haizz...went to college damn early today...was there like at 7..saw linardy..than talked for awhile..than went for class...learned new things on front office...but forgot everything in the end??..hehehe...than went for hors class...and was totally blur and sleepy...hehe..than was seperated into groups to do assignment...than wen class was over...they all left to cafe 87 to eat..while i went to fairview to get my results....was damn nervous from the trip to fairview...thought i was gonna fail all my subs and had a thought of gettin kicked out of kdu?...wen reached there..seems nuthing has changed...nava being the same ol bitch...skul still sucks....than wen i gt my results..i found out tht i had 1 U..haizz...need to buckal up in my studies nw...in total i had 1C 3 Ds 1 E and 2 U's...haizz...than went home..and went online..than felt very sleepy and slept..wen i woke up i realized tht i slept for 4 hrs...wow...i don usually take naps..but DANG!...i took a long nap today...college...quite tiring at times....haizz

..NO TITLE.

college...can be fun at times...can be shitty at times....today for me...college was realy shitty..had class from 8-12...and plus it was damn boring wei....i mean seriously..hearin a guy whoes voice is like beginning of his puberty tht just began to crack...its really boring...and after tht had front office management...and instead of havin class the lecturer had tons of complains about us cuz of coming to class late...playin a fool in class..and not in proper attire...and cuz of tht...each and everyone had to stand as they are being by attendance and the class "groomer" had to spot out every single detail tht was not hotel manager material...and wen it was my turn..i had like 3 complains...first was tht my belt...which was no where in sight cuz i didn have one....and hair which i don want to cut it...but force to nw..and lastly its tht wen im out of her class my shirts are out...and pants are fallin...hehehe....i don care...just gona cut my hair thts all..than i met up with baby and in the end i went to her place to chill..and wen mom and dad was gone..we were together so close..and tht was the best part of my day cuz i realize tht the feelings of insecurity has gone ...i really enjoyed my day with her...and im really glad and thankful tht im actually with the girl of my dreams...i can never ask for more...thank you o mighty lord..

DREAMS!! I HATE IT

haizz...they say dreams come true...i personally hope the one i had will never come true at all...
anyway i had a dream last night..it was that baby called me and she told me that it was time tht we have a breaK..and that i shuldn bother callin her anymore until i have grown up and learn not to be pissed at small lil things cuz she was tired of it already..i was shocked, sad, confused and reaaly like "wht the fuck?"....after that i knew tht i made a very stupid mistake...and i tired to call her and tell her that im sorry and it'll never happen again...i called her 10 times and she never picked up and never even call baq..and online i tried to say it there but she was never online..and till one time she actually picked up....she was like WHT?!..than i apologized to her and said im sorry...she wouldn forgive me...than i went out for a lonely lunch..i saw her with her exx...and i was totally shocked and very blank in my mind..i didn noe tht this kinda things would have ever happen to me wen im with her..haizz...after tht i just comited suicide ...i remembered how i actually died...i went to the top apartment..which was 30 floors...and i went to the edge with a knife..i slit my throat and i fell down ....than my mom woke me up for college...and i found myself cryin..and after that i was totally depressed the whole day..until i told baby about it and she said that it will never happen,...i believe her with all my heart...i really do..but something in me thinks that in the VERY VERY NEAR future..it will happen,...i dunoe why this insecurity has happen to me again...i dunoe why...i thought it came and left and begone with it...but nw it has come baq to hunt me...and this insecurity might not leave me nw...i dunoe why am i feelin like this...i really love you denise..i love you baby...they might say its obssesion..i don care...i admit..i am obssesed with you ...i am...you might this tht im wierd...im crazy...im stupid..im dumb..im an asshole...i don care...i want you to noe tht i really love you ...i love you like MAD!!....but you can't blame me baby...i've been inlove with you for 4 years..and im finally able to be with you..and nw you tell me to let go.i realy can't do it...im sorry...I WILL NEVER DO IT....im crazy baby i noe i am...i noe i am..im sorry..nw the whole decision its really up to you weather you still wanna be with me...

5th MONTH anni

baby you gotta noe..your the air tht i breath, your the light of my day, your the one that brigtens my life wen im down.. your the soul tht allows me to live, your the one i need the most in my life...without you i would die.
wht im tryin to say is that i just want to see you today just for 5 mins cuz i aint gonna see you at all today and tmr and sundaY and monday...all i was askin was for 5 mins..but than you didn noe...and i don blame you...when you went without tellin me i was pissed...i noe you noe..its just that i REALLY WANTED to see you..
anyway all im tryin to say is i love you with all my heart and soul baby..and from the day i met you till today..i cherished every moments with you and never have i even thought of regretin at all..i love you baby..and im very sorry again..but than havin spent time with you from 5 till 9 was a moment that i'll never forget...it was the first time tht we went out on a anni...and again im sorry tht i haven taken you out for a date baby...tht i regret..i shuld have...im sorry baby..i love you..i love you..
and since you noe wht type of guys you have in your class...PLZZ PLZZZ take care of yourself baby...i don wan anything to happen to you..if sth is wrong..call me..and i will be there right away..